I wont be mad at him forever..
Right now im cooling off..
and im feeling sorry for him.
But my bipolar likes to take control of me..
And, once my life wasnt goin right i forced an overdose.
And just today i got high in school.. Yea,
thank god no one thought i was on drugs..
I mean it wasnt drugs.. but it was drugged enough to fuck me up
I hang out with a bad infulence of people,
and then my bff jess, she's a drug dealer..
Im walking in her steps right now..
Im a little over my head.. but idk what to do with myself
.. Yeah, how old is he..?
It was either 17 or 18..
And I wont hate him forever.
I have bipolar disorder.
I tend to blow over on people for what they do..
Its not that i hate him, i do right now, but not forever.
People take me for a spoiled bitch with an attitude..
My mum is cool and doesnt put me on meds to control my life..
She wont dope me up unless its gunna actually do me some good.
Which wouldnt really work.. Meds are just my way of getting high..
Those are things i tend to do ...I stopped a while back when i thought of overdose.
Yeah ^-^ Im not a prettie girl with a great life.. I fucked that up long ago.
Yeah, ive been really protective over my brother,
but after the accident with Jake & Robby
it was like, "remember what happened before?"
and everyday when i wake up, I remember
what if something like that happened all
over again, what if it was my brother,
again, but what if he didnt make it this time?
As suicidal as I sound, I'd have to kill myself
no one touches my brother without dealing with me
afterwards.. I kicked this boy's ass once
cause he was picking on my brother..
I dont go down easy.. I really dont.
I never honestly knew him in person,
But I really wish I could have..
Yesterday when Cambree had told me what Jake did..
I wanted to hunt him down and kick his ass,
Jake seemed more responsible than that,
And he's done something I wouldnt be able to live with.
I know my lil bro can be annoying,
But if he died, and someone had murdered him..
I'd find their asses and kill them..
Since Robby passed on, I've been..
Idk.. A lot more protective over my lil bro..
I've almost lost him once in a car accident, I cried until I stopped breathing when it happened.
Exactly, honestly when I was told,
it took me a minute to get my emotions straight,
and i started crying because I wasn't ready to let him go..
Just today at school everyone was asking me what was wrong..
It killed me just to tell them that I lost someone close to me..
A 'so called' friend of mine didnt care, which pissed me off..
Btw, I was going to say this before but I have a brain funtion of my younger brother. I forget stuff to easy. Lol
I wont be mad at him forever..
Right now im cooling off..
and im feeling sorry for him.
But my bipolar likes to take control of me..
And, once my life wasnt goin right i forced an overdose.
And just today i got high in school.. Yea,
thank god no one thought i was on drugs..
I mean it wasnt drugs.. but it was drugged enough to fuck me up
I hang out with a bad infulence of people,
and then my bff jess, she's a drug dealer..
Im walking in her steps right now..
Im a little over my head.. but idk what to do with myself