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"Nikki ~ Mom of 4 "
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mom of 4~ two little ones (4 & 5yr old girls) and two teens (14 yr old boy & 15 yr old girl~ going through some tough times with the two teenagers )..i love my husband but i don't feel like i am getting much emotional support these days.
I have recovered from a couple of bad years after the use of drugs . I have been clean now for over 7 yrs . In the process i lost my two oldest children ( i actually gave them to their father so that i could get better ..i didn't want to give up my children but it was the best thing i could do for THEM -at the time) .
I have since regained Full Legal & Physical custody of both my oldest children.( this was before i had my two youngest children )
I have also since re-married and I am doing better things in life and remaining clean and my top priority is my children and family and making sure that i am ok as well.(cause if mom's burnt out then the family will fall apart!) but honestly, and i guess understandably so, ..I have been beating myself up for years since trying to regain the trust,love & respect that i feel that i have lost from my two oldest children and i know that is why it's been so hard for them to take me seriously and to behave at times ..i mean, It's not unusual for teens to be rebelious ( i was one ,I KNOW!) .. but after all they have been through and because i was married at such a young age and had my children at a young age, ..i just wish things could have been a lil'different and that i would have grown up or atleast smarten'd up a little faster for my childrens sake.
I was married at 17 and had my oldest child when i was 20 ..i was married to a physically abusive X and ironically so, i left my ex- because of his abusive ways and his DRUG USE. ( Go Figure)
anyway, it's been a long ride and i still have some better choices to make in which direction i take for the future.
I'm just tryin to be the best mom i can ..
I joined this site for friends and to have a positive relaxation outlet because i love art ( i went to Highschool of Art & Design in NY)i also love working with photoshop and graphics on the computer.
So i am excited to be a part of G/G!
For now i am just creating new graphics in my small collection but i will have some to show & share ..hopefully soon! I am a little busy as anyone can imagine having 4 children and working(i bartend a few nights a week).
Here is my first graphic (So i can request my favorite graphics! LOL)
*Below are just a few images to share who i am for now...
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