wishing they would stop fighting and get a fucking divorce..
the truth of what i am, who i am. the fact is i'm not the person you want to have as a friend , i'm not the person you want to like or love. i'm just a fake. nothing more. i say what i don't mean and i'm soo good at this lying thing its become my addiction , a necessity, a norm to my everyday life.
i love you, i love you , i love you, i cant live without you , you're the only one i need. so many people have heard this from me and i've almost never meant it. its a sad, sick life to live but it is mines. i embrace it and yet scorn it all at the same time. its this peculiar irony that carries me forth everyday. to live in this fake world , with fake people.i claim to be different. but the truth is i'm one in the same. i live with the regrets of my past etched onto my skin everyday. a testament to my mishaps.
i wish i could take back every person i've hurt, every person i've lead on and then cut them off when they felt so attached. but i cant. i live with my curse. my inability to love and cherish. but for the collateral i genuinely regret hurting you.
my happiness is thoroughly dependent to the people around me and their willingness to accept me. to make me happy, let me be myself. don't chain me down and suffocate my creativity.
<3 i LOVE music,it's my heart and soul an most times my will to live
<3i love cookies
<3i'm into poetry
<3 i love the moon and the stars an the night canvas. amazes me everytime
<3 dunw if u noticed but i LOVE my chemical romance <33333
they have saved my life an i owe them.i love them : )